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life's a game, but its not fair.
much loves, pearlly.
update.
Tuesday, October 19, 2010 1:12 AM /
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boo. i miss this adorable boy so badly. i know i'm meeting him later. but.. i'm used to having him awake at this timing, but he has school now, so of course he has to sleeeeeeeeeeeeeeep. ♥♥
oh well. :(
re-edit at 3.30am.
you know, i'm the type who thinks really deep and thinks too much when i'm alone. and when i start, its hard to stop. then sometimes, i'll start to be so negative about myself. i hate that, but that's how i am.
i thought about the past. i know past is past, but somehow history is still what had happened and history sometimes repeats. history sometimes are hard to forget too. and i thought. really hard, so negatively and i started to compare. you wouldn't want to know how lowly i compared myself to her. really. through this thinking, i know some things that you may not thought i would know. don't ask me why, but really the fact just slipped in my mind and i knew it was true. but too bad that's how i am.
and then i thought. alot.
i really wish i was able to make you happy just as easy as she did.
i wished i was better.
i really wish i ............ oh man, i don't know how to spill this shit out, without actually stating down what i realised. oh pooo me, im really annoying at times with this shit. but. i cant help it, cause really i thought very lowly of myself which made me like this. damnnn, i should've watched a video or smth instead of thinking. okay this is nonsensical. i got to shutup.
breebreebree i miss my cousins. eyer, everybody is so busy with stuffs.
and my holidays is ending soon, sooooooooooooooo long to sleeping late and waking up late. boo, if school was nearer i would love it. but really i hate school. but how sad that life depends on education.
and lastly, i'm a lost child who has no idea where she is gonna go.
goodnight.
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