again&again&&&again.
Tuesday, August 31, 2010 10:02 PM /
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Since I can't really vent my sorrows or anger anywhere as some may just read and complain. Please endure this not needed post.
I'm really really tired. Tired of running & hiding. What's the point ? Sometimes I really wonder, am I really thaaaat bad ? Do I really make up such stories?
I'm tired la. Y'all go ahead say what you wanna say. I'm shutting myself up and taking every bullshits and things I have to faced, even though words kill me. Well at Least it doesn't kill me literally. Still Alive.
<3
I promise I'll do the letters, soon. It's hard not being able to use the laptop and do the letters easily w/o mistakes. Futhermore I wanna insert in picture too.
For now, damn I wished iblogger let me upload pictures but I don't see anything.
If I could I would have upload a certain picture & it's will fit well in this post of mine.
Danial Farihin<3
The best I've ever have or the best I'll ever have. My bf + my close friend. Sometimes when you least expected you just fall. And I did.
He's just the best. I know it's still a fresh r/s but we've known each other for a few months.
Wednesday & Friday baby(:
He sings to me everyday. My happy pill everyday ! Hee.
Good luck for exams later. I know you'll do well. & I saw your Twitter status. Danial Farihin<3 imissyouheavenloads !
Goodnightmares people.
Ohoh I'm meeting my friends later ! Damn I can't wait ! Pictures laughters gossips and everything. Love you people so damn much !
......
Sunday, August 29, 2010 4:48 AM /
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Argh. Yeah I agree with you. I see no point of me being here too. Just fuck off from my facebook la ass. Jshsuahxhuahhsuai. I'm so Furious that I'm not surprised if I were to cry. Cb la.
If I don't scream there and you don't want me to say anything then you want me to vent anger where? You can screw me all you people want la. I don't care.
Cause I see no point in fixing a broken glass. As for this, this glass is totally smashed. Yeah you heard one side of the story and you'll always will side that story.
Sometimes I hope there is really something wrong with my fucking brain.
I'm fucking furious but not that furious to not tell that Danial farihin is currently the best person in my life. As long I have him, I know I'm happy. I love you.
It may be shocking but things happen.
Say what you want to say but you have no idea what he has done to make me fall so unexpectedly. 2908 aye ? <3
Okay now I'm gonna go back to being frigging angry. Cb.
this post is redundant. it's just me venting my anger !
Saturday, August 28, 2010 12:09 PM /
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I'm effing furious now. Seriously ! What the fuck do you think I have facebook for?! I don't need fucking informats to be around. It's my effing facebook, and I say what I want to say. Does it even matter?
Oh now you wanna say that I stared at you before? Yknow I dare swear I haven't! Or maybe you think I was cause everytime I have an annoyed face you think I was showing at you when actually I was stressed because of some other things totally not because of you.
Fuck i hate when my privacy is intruded. Which is why I don't wanna add some people. Tsk so now you all think you all some goody two shoes. Hell no nobody is.
Yelar as usual you don't blame yourself on anything, you've done nothing wrong right. Hmm as usual. You all never take faults. Shameful or what
Seriously i'm glad you've deleted me cause seriously I need privacy and hell I wanna feel free to post anything I want.
I swear I'm fucking furious right now.
I'm glad I'm not fasting, I swear.
Urgh.
I've been minding my own fucking business. You're the one who made me do all that. Ah fuck la. I'm so angry that I just... I don't know! I like wanna get out of here fast and go sit somewhere else and relax, but I hate to answer questions. Ah fuck la.
hee.
I <3 you.
Unexpected, but who cares. (:
You may not be the knight in the shining armour or a prince, but you make me happy always(: you lulled me to sleep even though you're shy. Aww, I swear I felt like crying. Goodnightmares.
<3
2nd letter : My Crush.
Sunday, August 22, 2010 10:01 PM /
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haha. hmm, my crush aye.
well, this crush has been so long already. even though i rarely see you, when i mean rare, its veryveryvery rare. but when i do, i feel happy for the effing whole day !
:D
heh, well, a crush is a crush lah, the feeling never reallly go away.
this crush was like what ?! secondary two ? when i was damn nerdy, immature and totally ugly. okay i know now still ugly. but more uglier than now (: HAHA. kidding.
anws, yeah everybody says you're handsome, at that point of time. not sure about now, cause i rarely even see you. you're not malay, but you know malay. well who cares ! i even had a nickname for you, and i come to know that actually that IS your nickname. HAHA awesomeee. hahaha.
heh.
you used to make me happy when i see you in school.
HAHA, KENTAL TIMES. :D
BUT, a crush is just a crush. its different than me liking a person (:
Labels: INMYHEAD.
first letter still but to another person.
Another same letter. Heck who cares about the damn rules, even If they had any!
Anws this letter is for someone who is always there for me (: heh.
Endure my every nonsense anytime of the day. Endure my every complains anytime of the day. Someone who always cheered me up every single time.
We know each other well enough and I doubt we get bored of each other nonsense ! You always make me feeeeel uberly happy balls. And you understand my every problems as always. You know when I'm saddd too (:
Andand haha, you already know all my ugly habits and all just like all my other best friends, even though I've known you for 5 months eh ? Heh.
Thanks for always being there aye(: and it works the same way for me(: I'm here for you too.
&& thanks for the ayam penyet.
Hello, best heavenly friend I've ever haddddd. Danial farihin (:
Enjoy johor balls!
&& I know I haven't reply your chat yet cause I'm writing this ! Heh sorry!
Replying you now, bye.
Stay tuned for the next letter which is to ... Ah we'll see(:
<3
my first letter. (: to my best friends.
Okay here it goes(:
I don't have a specific best friend as I find it biased towards all my other friends.
To my secondary friends: reshmi, rajathi, Durga, ferra, Asha, amrit aniq and murali <3
you all are my sunshine everytime I attend school. We are all from different characters but as we all beame friends, we clicked on well. I don't care when people say why you have many Indian friends( yes there are some who asked me that.) I don't care cause to me it isn't the race that matter, it's the people you are with. And you all are the best. You are my laughing gas. We all are creative, supportive and imaginative. Every joke and every gossip will be funny as hell ! I'll sure miss my secondary 5 year as even though it's the most stressful, it's the best year with you people. My motivation, my laughing gas, my effing best friends(:
You all listen to my every problems and be there when times suck. Cheer me up and truth is, you all were one of those people who motivated me to get thru Olevels. Look at me now w/o you guys. So demotivated, so lost:(
But somehow I know you all be there whenever you need to be & of course it works both ways too.
We scold each other like crazy but we know it's a joke. We are awesome people ! (:
I hope to meet you lovely asses soon(:
I love you people like so very effing much <3
Next post is still my best friend letter (:
(:
Thursday, August 19, 2010 9:44 PM /
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Oh && If you hadn't appear on this yet, meaning yours will be in the rest of the letters. (:
1st letter : To my best friend.
So here goes my first letter. As much as I had to update through my Itouch, I just had no choice cause everybody is hogging the laptops. Tsk.
Anws, on a brighter note, let's write this letter. I have never had a best friend. I don't know why but having a best friend makes me feel like I'm biased. Well, that's my point of view. Having saying that, I don't say you're biased just because you have a best friend. That's you & this is me.
&& it's hard to write this thus I would love to write for all of my closest friends. I don't know the rules of this letter, heck I'm gonna write for all my closest friends, with their names above. So I guess it's a letter for like a bunch of people aye, but I don't mind. Cause this people are those people who are worth writing for, in fact expressing it isn't enough. Heh(:
I won't write all now, cause it's gonna be lengthy and all. So it will be divided into a few posts. But I'm gonna update when I get my hands on the laptop.
Hope i get it soon. Just wait for a few days aye(:
<3 (:
QUOTES(:
I.WANT.TO.KEEP.A.CAT. PERIOD.
I WANT TO SLEEP BESIDE IT AND ALWAYS PLAY AROUND WITH THEM.
THEY ARE EFFING ADORABLE CREATURES.
All i can do is be me, whoever that is.
- Bob Dylan.
Dealing with backstabbers, there was one thing I learned. They're only powerful when you got your back turned.
- Eminem. <3
The truth is you don't know what is going to happen tomorrow. Life is a crazy ride, and nothing is guaranteed.
- Eminem.
If it's illegal to rock and roll, throw my ass in jail!
- Kurt Cobain
Some of the worst mistakes of my life have been haircuts.
- Jim Morrison
:D
Labels: eminem is the best out of all this. heh.
an unopened letter to the world.
Wednesday, August 18, 2010 11:34 PM /
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Write a letter to these people :
Day 1 - Your Best Friend.
Day 2 - Your Crush.
Day 3 - Your Siblings.
Day 4 - Your Parents.
Day 5 - Your Dreams.
Day 6 - A Stranger.
Day 7 - Your Ex-boyfriend or girlfriend/love/crush
Day 8 - Your Favourite Internet Friend.
Day 9 - Someone You Wish You Could Meet.
Day 10 - Someone you don't talk to as much as you don't like too.
Day 11 - A deceased person you wish you could talk to.
Day 12 - The person you hate most/caused you pain.
Day 13 - Someone you wish could forgive you.
Day 14 - Someone you've drifted apart from.
Day 15 - Someone you miss the most.
Day 16 - Someone that is not in your state/country.
Day 17 - Someone that is from your childhood.
Day 18 - The person that you wished you could be.
Day 19 - Someone that pesters your mind (either good or bad.)
Day 20 - The one that broke your heart the hardest.
Day 21 - Someone you judged by the first impression.
Day 22 - Someone you want to give a second chance to.
Day 23 - The last person you kissed.
Day 24 - The person that gave you the perfect memory.
Day 25 - The person you know that is going through the worst of times.
Day 26 - The last person you made a pinky promise to.
Day 27 - The friendliest person you knew for one day.
Day 28 - Someone that changed your life.
Day 29 - The person you want to tell everything too, but afraid to.
Day 30 - Your reflection in the mirror.
Saw this from my friend's bloggg ! :D
since i forgot how to blog. maybe this may help.
i may not blog everyday, but the letters will always be updated.
HAHA, MAY BE ABIT DIFFICULT FOR ME TO DO THIS, CAUSE WHILE READING IT. I SWEAR I WAS BLUR. BUT LET'S TAKE THE CHALLENGE !
:D
Labels: round and round.
:(
Sometimes all i wanna do is say thanks to people who've been there for me. But then when I do, things always get weird. This is not the first time :(
heee.
Tuesday, August 17, 2010 12:22 PM /
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HELLO.
(:
i think i know why i don't blog anymore, because i just forgot how to blog :/
haha.
ohwells.
*& the last thing I wanna do, is to fix the broken pieces.
* you may watch me grow, but sometimes, people change unconsiously and you just see what you see. and seeing what you see doesn't mean you know me well.
*& i realised i'm not ready for anything. For, school, studies, r/s or anything new.
im just happy with things are now, even though there's alot of bullshits happening.
'dontfallforme.'
Labels: till theeeeeeeeeeen bye