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life's a game, but its not fair.
much loves, pearlly.
Tuesday, April 6, 2010 11:32 PM /
to toprelationship ended.
all i wanna say now is my heart is like a glass mirror that has been smashed from the twelve stories to the first. i'm hurt. hurt, tremendously.
why. well because of everything. I'm not going to say why it ended.
but yes, i have to stop loving you and forget you, no matter how hard it gets.
i can forgive but i will never forget. everything you say stays etched in my mind, like it is part of my brain cells. every good memories, every bad will always be there. my heart is broken and well, hard to piece it back. but hey, life needs to go on. Nearly 5 months, I should be glad everythings out. thus no more pretense.
just so you know if you happen to come by, of which i highly doubt so. but whatever, my <3 for you was true, sincere and i fell too, too deep. i <3 you hell loads, more than you can imagine.
for now, its time to move on.
yes, ill miss you. but we can't keep brooding over the same thing.
i'm just damn hurt. not gonna state why here. i <3 you alot, and this happens. and the truth really hit me hard, just like a tight slap on my face. i know i knew it long ago but hearing you admit it breaks it even more.
right now, im angry with myself. i should'nt have done whatever i've done that day. stupid bitch, i am. tsk.
well when you're vulnerable and feeling damn hurt, all i wanted was a tight hug. from... you.
oh well, nuff said. shit happens and things happens for a reason. i'm thinking positive but going thru this is difficult. but IF you can move on so easily then i guess i can too. and if others can do it, def i can too.
its just that its the first time, and the decision was unpredictable. i just don't know how to stop <3-ing you.
goodnight people.
