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i'm sorry for yet, another emotional post. emotional, but I ain't crying. But my heart's feels so heavy.
i mean, i just got to know you actually had a deal ? okay, I'm glad it was a deal which states for 2 years. but, hey is that a deadline or what ? i mean, you should know your heart's not in it, why fake it that long ?
you know. Im not feeling sad that this ended. Im just sad that you can't say the truth. and then i had my intuitions and then this ?
seriously, i just feel like ah, fuck.
you can never get it, can never care. why am i labelled as such ? and why do people think I'm the one who caused all this ? I mean, i felt like this wasn't real, obviously i had to say to you, and clarify my doubts. which was true right.
seriously, yes, luckily it ended now. but seriously, whatever you did, it was just too harsh and unexpected from you.

you seriously did something to my heart. right now, it feels so fucked up.

'you stole my heart and then you kicked it away' - DAMN GIRL sang by the all american rejects.

nothing hurts like losing, till you know its already gone. - Miley Cyrus.

I'm letting go. i mean I have been for a week now. but all i'm so ever upset is all ive mentioned above. I mean, siala, i always believed you were different.
im not angry anymore. im just so disappointed, like fuck. after everything, you just do this.

somehow i hope you would correct me if ive said anything wrong. All this is based on my intuitions and whatever i thought you are. since, you have never cared what impression i had of you and never cared to make sure i have a good impression of you, then let's just stick to this impression i just had about you.

man, i swear, i'm speechless, and disappointed.
goodbye, seriously.
you are doing so good and easy now, aren't you. i don't know. I don't wanna accuse anything. just felt like you are. well, i'm glad you're doing good.
this thing should be kinda easy cause its not a long term r/s but, i just don't know. the truth, the intuitions, the things i get to know just make me upset even more.

from now on, not referring to any matter in particular, i don't wanna get involve in stuffs that has no relations with me.

i got to stop posting shits about you. but i just dont know where to turn and let exactly everything i wanted to say, out. i mean, im much better with saying everything down, than telling everything out.

shifting off away from the above topic.
last day at work tomorrow. got to know kickass is M18. how kickass bullshit is that. *shakes head.
haiz, problems today never seem to end, do they ? they just keep piling & piling up.
I hope it will better tomorrow, wait, today i mean.

goodnight. i wanna go to bed, in like 15-20 minstime ?

and also, will relink you people back soon.

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My friends, are all different. We all have different characters but when we come together, we bond well. I can be crazy whenever i want to with them and I can share any shits with them. We laugh, we cry. I miss you, people.