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draceania pearl-linnia!
Finally seventeen. 01november1992. Lepidopterophobia : butterflies freak me out.
I find myself better at expressing through words than saying it out to someone.
siblings, cousins and channing tatum makes me happy(: !
i have fetish for british accents and i feel a sense of euphoria listening to music and i love to read.
I've learnt many things in life.
I believe everybody makes mistakes.I'm not the only one who makes mistakes. Just think of all the ones you made.
And don't think so negative about yourself. If you do, you will never think you can.
I try to be optimistic but not too optimistic.
okay! No one, No one. Have ever made me this pissed. I swear if you were in front of me, i would've hurled vulgraties and sarcasm at your face. i think this anger is also about those things i kept way back. okay, wait. I know, being angry over something you have no evidence about is totally bull. but, I had intuitions. I know, fuck my intuitions, always made me feel so fucked up. I can just let this intuition go, but i realised i had other intuitions before, and hell, they were true. Furthermore, Somehow seeing some things just made me trust my intuitions even more. Fuck, i have never planned on hating anybody. Never planned. Even though, I'm trying not to. Seriously. If my intuition were true. Just wanna let you know, Karma exist. They appear without you noticing. I know, cause i think i had mine. Everybody who knows me, knows that I'm not this kind of revengeful or the type of person who holds grudges. People who knows me also should know that I'm not that type who gets angry too easily. But when I do, i Get bloody sarcastic, and during the time, i can't control myself. i may not look like i'm capable of such thing but dont judge a person by its cover. Im way more than you think I am, seriously.
look, i don't care with whatever fucking thing you're gonna do with your life. I've just decided that today. Cause fuck hell, why should I even fucking bother when you don't give two shits about me. obvious much ? if not you would have cared and took interest in how i was doing. but hey there, fuck where the hell are you. But, SERIOUSLY, let me repeat, if I ever get to know, that this intuition were true. damn, I would be so darn hurt. I mean, fuck. Where the fuck is your feelings for others ? Firstly do you even care how i would react to such things, after everything you did. I don't care about whatever you think. yes, fuck. it hurts, like hell. but, I can't help it if i'm a forgiving person. and if it was true. if there's any chance i get to spit those sarcasm back at you. i would, i would. everything, every sarcasm that i had saved since that day. every bullshit you gave me, i have a sarcasm answer back.
if its true, I be fucking speechless. I never expect that from you, even though somehow deep down, i thought such thing can happen. haiya. fuck lah. why am i being so contradictive now? dang, im sucha weirdo. *shakes heads.
lastly, i dont hate you. never will, never will happen cause, ... oh well, i dont wanna say it anymore. but whatever happening, just doesnt seem like you.
and also, why did i fall too deep ? :(
okay, those who reads this, don't judge too quickly about whom i'm referring to. sometimes, its not who you think it is. the things i say here, can be referring to many many people. actually yes, it does. & i'm not lying, seriously lors.
but heyy, no point in brooding over something or someone who has never returned the way you treated them. I'm glad, I'm quite optimistic. If not. tsk, i dont even wannna think about it. this was supposed to be easier. but, i just dont know lah.
haiz. why must I be so intuitive ? *shakes head.
but lastly. i'm so gonna miss working. what's with the people and nice aunties. aiya.
i think i know why i feel as such. cause work ending. daaaaaaaaaaang.
Family.
They are the ones who have always made my life awesome. I can count on my siblings and cousins to make me laugh and I will always look forward to our outings. I'm always myself whenever I'm with them.
Friends.
My friends, are all different. We all have different characters but when we come together, we bond well. I can be crazy whenever i want to with them and I can share any shits with them. We laugh, we cry. I miss you, people.
