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much loves, pearlly.
♥ im going bonkers.
Wednesday, October 22, 2008 1:46 AM /
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im too tired already.
its a pity that people think very lowly and badly about us.everything we do seems to be a problem to everyone.everything we do will make people think negatively about us.
idont even know what they want me to be?be an anti social person and be in the house 24/7 and clean the house.
even a bbq outing can be made into a big issue.instead of calling me straight they need to call other people and make them worry.what is the use of giving me a phone then?im 16 and i know whats right and whats not.and he can still say that im not always at home to entertain my sister.hmph.at least i dont go around doing wrong things.its just sleeping over at my granny's place.her mum.he never will understand.going out gor a bbq for one whole day and coming back at night can also be an issue to him.he have to blame other people for not taking care of me well and call others stupid.in fact, i told him whre i was going bfre i went out and he didnt say a thing.during this holidays i can count with my one hand how many times ive gone out with my friends.i think 2 or 3 times only.and as always ill clean the house bfre i go out and nvr asked them for money.and still have the cheek to say i lied to them.ehhh pls lahh.its been a long time since i lied to them cause i find no point in lying anymore.when we didnt lie they will say we lie.i didnt know what i did to make him lose trust in me anyway.whatever.
and today i went out with yana.and also another problem.why do she have to think like that?obviously my sister wont bring me to places like pub or anything or teach bad things to me.she's my sister for goodness sake.and its has hurt us quite harshly.although she said those harsh things,ill nvr be rude to her.she the one who makes my life better anyway.but what she said really hurt my sister badly.i know my sister is hurt but she doenst show it.and i myself feel sad that they feel we would do something like that.nvrmind.
as long we know didnt do anything that is bad, its okay.we are mature enuf to think already.
tmr i gotta face questions again.just show them the msg is enuf.i didnt lie.whatever.
this is the first time that im blogging bout my feelings.
the true me is that i cry when im angry, im too sensitive and i care too much about what people think about me.so im gonna stop already.
anyways, my blog is currently not in a so good condition.but ill chnge it soon
and those voices are so soothing to the ears.
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